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2020, what a beautiful year to say.

Another decade has now passed and a new one has begun. But I’m not gonna sound too cliché I promise. Let’s recap 2019, shall we?

Let’s start off with the face that we ended last year with me being pregnant! How crazy was that?!

Started this year with a infection in my actual eyeball, so I don’t have the best of luck when it comes to starting new year’s.

We started 2019 with a trip to Malta with the fam. W O R S T trip ever! I was sick everyday, spent all day basically sleeping and was nauseous all the time. Other than that, I would love to return to the country during summertime, it’s gorgeous, that’s for sure!
I worked a lot and developed my love for baking! Or it got bigger is the right term.
I made my very first lasagna this year, which is crazy that I haven’t done before.
We saw our baby boy for the first time.
A lot of trips to my friend Nathalie who also had a baby this year, and she turned out to be a hell of a fighter, and I’m so proud of the little princess!
We saw our baby for the second time, and it turned out to be a boy, but we didn’t know that yet.
I made vanilla buns for the first time!
Spent a lot of time with my friends and made some new once that I think I’ll keep for the rest of my life!
We had a gender reveal party and found out that it was a boy.

My grandma passed away and my heart was broken.

Started doing lashlift, turned out it was more fun than I thought.
I worked out with mini and it was fun until I was in month 7, that’s when everything stopped being fun.
Had a beautiful baby shower! It was everything I ever wanted!
We moved into our apartment. Moving in two days when pregnant in month 7 is not easy, but we did it!
Celebrated my last birthday as just a wife. From now on I will be celebrating it as a mum as well.
The biggest thing this year is giving birth to our baby boy Elias Robert Malak.
Started university to become a dental nurse and has a couple of tests and thankfully they went well.
Had a couple of date nights with my love even though we have a little baby. Thanks to my family. Started working at a school, and it’s the best job I’ve ever had. I love my job!
Got new glasses, celebrated my husband’s first Father’s Day, and my dad as a grandpa.
Elias was on his first birthday party and slept through half of it.
We made Christmas cards with matching PJ’s and it was everything I ever wanted.
Got the best Christmas gifts from my family this year! So grateful!
Celebrated Elias first Christmas with the annual party, held at our house for the first time!
He also celebrated his first new years and LOVED the fireworks!
He’s made so much progress over these past 4 months, I can’t keep up! My little monkey!

So a lot of walks with the stroller, spending time with family and friends and just trying to make life work. A lot of firsts and a lot laughs!

My resolutions this year are:
Organizing,
Planning,
Consistency,
Get in better shape,
Take care of myself,
Prioritizing,
Grow in my faith,
Try to be more present,
Work towards having stuff done before hand so I don’t have to do it last minute,
Stress less,
Eat healthier and
Sleep more.

Elias resolutions are:
Sleep better,
Crawl,
Walk,
Talk,
Hold the bottle without any help,
Say my first words,
Eat solid food.

Here is to 2020 being even better!

Take care of each other and be KIND! 
Puss xx

So I finished my first test at school and I actually passed! I was so sure that I would have to redo it since Elias was so grumpy the whole week and would give me a breather to study. It resulted in long days and long nights with little sleep. But the important thing is that I passed! Now we’re working with a much simpler subject that I feel more secure with, thank God!

Elias passed the 6 weeks mark and he is getting bigger and bigger by day! He has now rolled over and laughed! It’s not gonna be long until he starts to crawl, and my mummy heart is bursting with love! He has his vaccination next week and I hope he will be okay; he’s usually pretty good with needles so I hope this won’t be any different. He loves to stand and to sit up, even though he can’t do neither one by himself.

He is still breastfeeding which I’m hoping to be able to do until he starts to eat solid food, but the milk production is getting a bit slower so I don’t know if I will be able to only breastfeed him until then or if we will need to mix with formula a couple of times a day. The pressure on breastfeeding is really high, as long as baby is happy and healthy, who cares if it’s breast milk or formula. I hate the fact that they make women feel so bad about not breastfeeding for some reason. Everyone knows that breast milk is the best for the baby, but it’s the mothers choice if she wants to breastfeed. Some women can’t even do it and it sucks that they have to feel like less of a mum because of it. Keep your baby full, that’s the most important thing!  

I still haven’t had the chance to work yet, they just happen to need me on the only days that I can’t work because of school or that I need to take care of Elias. But I’m excited to start and hopefully I will get the chance soon.

We got invited to join the family group that starts tomorrow and I’m excited to get to meet other mommies with children around the same age as Elias and hopefully being able to do stuff together. I love my friends, but sometimes I feel like an annoying person not being able to talk about anything else that mum stuff. That’s why it would be fun to get to have those discussions with people in the same situation. I do have one friend with a baby girl that’s just 6 days older that Elias, but she lives on the other side of the country, and another one with a baby boy that’s born exactly 6h before Elias on the same date, which is crazy since it was not planned at all. And the more crazy thing about this is that my sister and her sister in law are besties and born the same year, and I’m friends with her other sister in law that’s born the same year as myself.

The trip to Lebanon is booked and we’re traveling in January, me, my mum & dad and Elias. It will be his first trip and I’m looking forward to letting my family there see him, especially my twinnie! Hopefully the weather will be kind to us during that time. Since its winter, it’s a gamble really, it can turn out to be sunny every day or rainy every day. We just have to pray and see. Can’t wait to see everyone though! I haven’t been to Lebanon in over a year now and I miss my family there a lot! It will be weird visiting Lebanon without my teta being there though. It’s so sad that she just missed her great grandson. She would always say that she wanted us to get a baby, and when I get pregnant, she lost the energy to fight. I think it was enough for her to know that a baby was on the way, and that she got to see me pregnant. But she was so sick and had been fighting for years; it was time for her to get some rest away from all the pain and suffering. It just so sad for us that are left behind, because for us the pain doesn’t go away, it’s always a part of your life. She will always be missed and I will tell Elias everything about her, how kind, sweet, funny and clever she was, it’s just a shame that he won’t experience it himself. Both my grannies where super women, the best people on this earth. I really consider myself so lucky to have had the chance to get to spend such a big part of my life with them in it.

Life is short people! Show your loved ones how much you care!

Take care of each other and be KIND!
Puss xx

So baby is one month today which is crazy! When I was pregnant it felt like time stood still, and now I can’t seem to keep up with it!

He’s smiling and recognizing our voices and looks at us with his beautiful big dark eyes! I could eat his cheeks and want to keep kissing them always! But he gets annoyed after a while and starts crying, forcing me to stop..

I started school and have my first test next week and I hope I can learn Latin by then since the test is about the anatomy of the teeth and basically everything is in Latin.. I made some friends as well, which made me think, how does one make friends when one are not in school anymore? Sure work, but I have very few friends from previous work places, so that’s that.

I start work in a few days, which is super exciting and I’m looking forward to it a lot!

The countdown to November has begun, when I can officially get back to the gym, and I wanna cry of happiness! I’ve missed a good ol’ workout that makes you sweat, and makes your legs feel like jelly! Gonna buy some new workout clothes as well, just as a gift to myself for being awesome and giving life to a mini human!

Speaking of shopping and clothes, I realized how extremely boring my wardrobe is! I have some clothes in there that I’ve literally have had for over 4 years! So I’m gonna spoil myself and get some new clothes as well! I will be spending a good amount of saved up money, but I feel like I’m worth it!

Me and hubby are the happiest we’ve been! We’re in a very good place, and he’s super helpful with the baby and understands how tired I can be. He gets up with baby at night when he don’t have work early the next day, not because he don’t want to, but because I don’t want him to. He isn’t a machine, he needs rest as well! But I’m super lucky to have such a devoted husband!

So, this month that passed flew by so fast I can’t even remember what I’ve done.. I feel like I barely has the chance to wake up before it’s time for bed again!

The month to come is gonna be all about school, work and loving the crap out of my family! Being a mum is the best thing that’s ever happened to me and I feel like this is my purpose in life! BUT that does NOT mean that I can’t do anything else with my life. I have many goals, dreams and passions in my life, and I don’t have any intention to stop any of it just because I’m a mum. I love to spend time with my son, he is my soul, but if I would spend all my time with him, all the time, I would go crazy. I need to get out and be Elissa and not mum from time to time! And baby should spend some alone time with his dad as well, he is just as much of a parent to him that I am!

Anw, enough rambling, now feed baby, then study, then sleep!

Take care of each other and be KIND!
Puss xx

Okay so the updating hasn't really gone the way I had in mind. 

I don’t understand how people do this so well. I try but I always find other things to distract me and make me forget. Well, if it was my fulltime job, it would be different I guess.

Okay, so what’s new?
The pregnancy is finally over, man I hated being pregnant the last 2 months, especially the last month, God time stood still! I’m gonna do a pregnancy/delivery/new life as a mommy video to YouTube, as soon as little Mr here gets a little better routine so I can film without getting interrupted every 10 minutes.

So Baby is finally here, and I couldn’t be more excited! He’s the cutest little monkey ever! I literally can’t get enough of him! I didn’t know how much love my heart was capable of feeling without exploding in my chest! He’s a little over 3 weeks and let me say that these 3 weeks has really passed by so quick, it’s not even funny. Like, now is the time for the time to stop! So I get to enjoy his baby days as much as possible… But nooo, just because I want the time to stop, it passes by so much faster now!

I started school last Tuesday and I’m excited about that. Hopefully I haven’t taken on more than I can chew with being a new mommy and all. But if everything goes as planned, I will be a dental nurse by summer 2021!

I also got a new job, like I didn’t have enough already… But I start next month so I have some time. This means that I will have to manage to be a fulltime mum, student and to top it off, a working wife. Life won’t be boring, that’s for sure!

I’m gonna try to update the bloggbook a little as well, when I have a second to breathe. And I can’t wait until I can go back to the gym as well! I miss working out and I feel so out of shape and I can’t wait until I can feel like my old self in my skin again!

Okay, so in conclusion:
Full time mommy and wifey
Full time student
Work
Blogbook
YouTube
Gym

These are the things I’m gonna try to manage and still be sane, sleep and eat… Well wish me luck I guess!

Now feed baby, sleep and tomorrow, SCHOOL!

Take care of each other and be KIND!
Puss xx

Dear Blogbook!

I’ve been very off lately because I needed the time to take care of many personal matters.

Let’s break it down:

So I’m a little over 6 months pregnant at this point and baby boy is really not letting me forget that he exists. He’s kicking and moving around and growing like crazy. Just like his mommy did. Most of the things to him are done; we just need to get all of the stuff from my parent’s house. My poor dad faints every time he walks in to the room stuffed with all of the baby stuff.

A couple of months ago we found out that we couldn’t stay in the apartment we were living in. So we had to find something else, quickly. Thank God for my parents. So that stress really sucked my energy out to 0. But thankfully we found a place and after 3 days of moving very intensely, we are now moved in and we love our new home!

I’m not working anymore at this point because of my pregnancy. The pain in my back and my hips was too much to handle. Thankfully I got a really good doctor that really listened to me and my problems, so he gave a sick leave paper, which was such a relief because that meant that I could be home without feeling bad about it. I miss working a little bit, after a couple of days being at home can be a bit boring. But I’m keeping myself busy.

I also applied for a university for the next semester; hopefully I will get in and can start studying while being home with mini. Feeling like I need to take a career change.

We also found out that my dear grandmother took her last breath and went to heaven. I couldn’t be happier for her since she was in so much pain. But my heart breaks every time I think that I will never hug her, kiss her, hear her voice and cuddle with her again. So my mum went to Lebanon with the first best flight and she didn’t let us go with her, she didn’t want anything to happen to me or baby. But my heart breaks for her every day. Missing her a lot since I haven’t seen her in about 2 weeks but I talk to her everyday a pray for her all the time, for God to give her all the strength and patience during this very hard time. Allah yerhamik ya teta, sallilna mn el sama w dallik maana.

I will hopefully be able to update more often now that I’m not working and all settled in, in our new home.

Take care of each other and be KIND!
Puss xx

Oh my God you guys. I’ve tried this new palette from NYX called “Ultimate Eyeshadow Palette Warm Neutrals USP03” And I need to say OMG PIGMENT! I absolutely LOVE this palette!

It got everything you need for a natural glam and for a party glam. I tried it for the first time on Saturday for my friend’s wedding, and I used some mattes and a shimmer and I absolutely love the results! The only problem with this palette really is that it doesn’t have any black shadow. Like none. One other thing a noticed was that the pictures and a bit misleading. But not to that point that the colors are a completely different shade!

So be wise in the palette you buy! Buy the one you think you will get out the most of!

Take care of each other and be KIND! 
Puss xx

I want them to learn that even if they are ahead in a subject in school, it doesn’t mean that they are better than their classmates. Because they are better than someone in math or English, doesn’t it mean that they can go around bragging about it. They should be proud of course! But when you walk around teasing people about something it becomes mean.

How is this related to our lives outside of the school?
Well basically everything!

We walk around judging people buy their education level, jobs, houses etc, just because everyone isn’t driving the most expensive car, or have a house worth millions. We think that we are better than everyone because we have “succeeded”. But your definition of success may not be like mine.

How would the world look, if everyone would just be nice to each other?
If everyone could just stop being mean to each other based on anything except their rude attitude, the world would be a better place.

So I’ll leave you with this amazing quote. Because, even if you’re not better than anybody and nobody is better than you, you’re still unique and needed just that way. The world would be boring if everyone was exactly the same.